ahhhhhhhh, bliehmy.

man, i havent blogged in awhile! ive been busier than normal. i come home and i am just waaaay to exhausted to blog, or go on the internet. but anyways, whats been going on... hmm... o yeah, our district assembly just passed by. it was wonderful. i had a good time and enjoyed the talks and everything. the drama was great too! probably my favorite part. all in all it was a great yet tiring weekend. we had to drive from san diego to LA all three days. i would not recommend that ever. its harsh. plus having a baby brother to haul around dont make it any easier. well coming back from the tiring weekend i had to go to work the next morning and my only day off is friday! i cant wait till school starts so that i could quite borders without feeling bad. bah. but yeah work at oggis has been super stressful. we have this huuuuuuuuge menu we have to memorize. if you asked me something, i would speak to you in ingredient form because thats the only thing ive been studying lately, plus my math. one day im gonna get both of them mixed up and start and writing down ingredients on my math test. ill be saying stuff like, 'tomatoes times ten plus olives divide by mushrooms turn it into fractions and whats the percentage of that? GRETCHELLS GOING MAD!? &yes you are correct, automatic A+++++'. SEE WHAT I MEAN?

speaking of math, which leads to the school subject. i think ive finally decided to just do the whole architectural drafting thing. theres this regular who comes in alot at borders who owns a building planning business that offered me to intern at his place and gain some experience. i thought itd be cool to just get the jist of what im getting myself into, but ill have to see. ive known the guy since we opened borders and i never knew he was an architectual drafter. that would really help out alot because i dont plan on going to school for 4 years, just 2. that way maybe i could just work my way up! people have been telling me to do nursing stuff, and i was actually thinking about doing the whole pharmacy technician thing, but then i would just be crying every night trying to study anatomy. i dont think i could do it. id run out of tears and start crying out my organs or something.

so im turning 20 next month and i think i need a more grown up look. yeah so serious. ive been saving money for a makeover. probably thinking about going short like gwenyth paltrows new hair do. thats what my co workers at borders were recommending. i need more ideas! and hair color, i dont want to go 'asian brown'. HELP ME, honest opinions appreciated :). i promise i wont hunt you down and send you mean emails.

i wanted to go to the padres game tonight. i know they suck and whatever, but they've been doing good lately... i wonder if they won tonight... but anyways yeah i didnt even have time to go :(. WAAAAH.

uhm so i forgot what else to say.

WE GET ALONG.

i love my girls :).
but i'm too tired so i shall blog tomorrow for sure.

feeling better.

ahh, crazy week with some crazy people but everything is all dandy now. i feel like I've been at home more which also makes me feel a lot better. last week i was just out and about everyday and this week has been busy but its been a lot better than last week. Also got to patch up a friendship that is real important to me! So i feel pretty happy and content at the moment, but knowing me, that will change in a week or so.

i miss Guam.
there was so much i didn't get to do over there that i really wanted to do. i believe were going there sometime next year, so I'm gonna have my list ready then I'm just gonna rent a car and do what i gotta do.

bah studying for the assessment test sucks. i know its just an assessment test and it should be easy, but i haven't been to school in 2 years so i don't remember a lot of the stuff. especially the math stuff! I don't want to be put in some retarded math class. i remember some stuff, i just gotta study to bring it all out on the top of my brain again. also i still don't know if i want to transfer to a university. southwestern, i hear, isn't that great of a school... so i don't know what to do! but whatever, ill just go with the flow.

how immature.

devins new girlfriend is crazy. i don't even know. they're like pretty much perfect for each other. their both super nuts. shes threatening me like a mad woman. so if anything new happens to my car or me please note that it could possibly be his crazy girlfriend. i have the crazy text messages to prove it. she keeps telling me that she'll smash me, woman please that was so 2 years ago. ANYONE could probably smash me, im super skinny i wouldnt be surprised if my baby brother could smash me.

i know i get stupid & the padres super suck.

i hate it when i know when i start stuff and i know i can easily fix it but i choose not to just because of how stubborn i am. but in my defense its like i do so much to try and help people out and i just want the same help when needed. I'm not perfect to the extent where i don't have any emotional feelings ya know. I've been super stressed out lately and super tired emotionally and physically that I've just decided to throw out the people that would bring me down when i don't need that kind of down time. lately when i get upset, i snap and i cant help it. then i end up feeling bad at the end of the day because i know i couldve handled the situation differently. so to anyone I've snap at or made a mean comment to, i am genuinely sorry! (especially for tonight, i feel really bad. your always there trying your best and i feel like i take advantage of it and i really want to change that, its just been harder then usual lately. but you have to know, i do appreciate everything you've been trying to do! EVERYTHING.)

so on a brighter note, tonight was another night of excellence. except for the part where the padres lost! bah for some reason i really had hope for them. the highlight of the night was seeing the other teams (Florida marlins, i think that's how you spell it) coach get kicked off the game! super hilarious. something crazy happened when we had left to get some hot dogs but then when we got back we just saw the coach and the other guy in the field arguing. pretty amazing stuff. stuff you would see in some sports movie! i could not get over it.
I'm not one to like sports in the first place and yet here i am jibber jabbering about baseball. there's just something about being at the ballpark and watching the baseball game live. its different from watching it on TV. besides learning new stuff is always fun. I've learned a lot about the life of sports lovers and i still have more to learn! besides I've also got to learn all this stuff for oggis, next i gotta learn about football because the season is coming up in September! BAH. i don't know if i could get into it though, someone prove me wrong.

chelsea from chelsea lately has lost her touch. i dont find her that funny anymore. so sad.

jennifer, camile, sari & maddy!

next girls night we should have it laid back! we should grab blankets and head over to the drive in theatre and watch wall e under the stars! that would be soo much fun, atleast i think so! someone would need to bring a boombox though. hahaa we'll have it all old school :). im excited!

la dee da land.

ahh, it was awesome hanging out with everyone again! even though i wasnt in the pool with everyone, i felt the joy! im still sick and i didnt want it to worsen. so i decided to stay out of the water. besides, i bet you the water was filled with PEE! and poo? haha. that place was nice though! it was nice and spacey. i would want to live there, but itd be waaaay to far away from errr'one.

o man, saw some people i havent seen in a long time though. how akward would it have been if i had to actually talk to this person! lets just say, we werent the best of friends, AT ALL.

so like i was watching saturday night live just right now and i wanted to know if that one 'who loves orange soda' dude from kenan and kel really died or not. im gonna have to research that after this. i remember someone telling me he did, but then i remember someone telling me it was a rumor. i hope it was just a rumor cause that guy was pretty awesome.

again for my last blog. i was just super bitter about how some people act. its like you just want to slap them in the face and tell them to stop being retarded but you cant because that would make you just as retarded. but anywho, im just gonna concentrate on whats great in life, and thats everything else around me! boy do i love it!

im excited for the new batman movie to come out. i wasnt a big fan of heath ledger just because of how he treated his ex wife, or was she just an ex girlfriend?, either way, they still had a baby together and i hated how he was sleeping around! but anyways i still wanna see that movie just cause it was his last movie before he passed away. it looks like he'd make a good joker too.

o and the padres won the last two games! whaaaaaaaaat :) its going to be dollar hot dogs and drinks at the padres games for just this month! sitting at the game live, eating a hot dog with a drink in hand is an unexplainable feeling!

Busy, busy, busy.

enough said.